Let's Be Real

I feel like that statement is kind of a disclaimer. It means that what ever is about to come afterwards might not be something everyone wants to hear, or it's maybe even something that person shouldn't share, but by saying "let's be real" you're somehow exempt from tact, social protocol, or monitoring your words.

So here's my disclaimer about today's post. It's about one of my frustrations with our adoption journey. If you're not up for it, now is the time time to hit the back button or mosey on back to Facebook.

And away we go!!!

Let's be real; God allows us to go through things in our lives to bring us to trust him. So far, in our adoption journey, God really has orchestrated everything perfectly. He's allowed things to fall in place that I couldn't have done myself. Even so, there are so many things about this process that continue to remind me that I am not in control. Not even a little bit. It's the hardest part so far of our adoption journey. Letting others: birth mom, agency, and people at the agency have more control over what's happening to our baby and in our situation than we have.

It is a constant battle for me to allow others to be so in control in such an important area of our life!

This last Wednesday I did a little shopping in downtown Alexandria.  I went to one of my favorite books shops The Mustard Seed and picked up "Trusing God day by day" by Joyce Meyer. I was in the market for something extra to add to my morning quiet time. This was it! It has daily nuggets of Biblical truth that take all of 2 minutes to read, and are impactful!

Well, in just a couple days this books has already spoken directly into my heart. Yesterday's, September 19, little devo took a situation I'm CONTINUALLY struggling with, my thoughts, the stress I create for myself by obsessing, and I got to learn how to deal with it.

For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways says the Lord. Isaiah, 55:8

I need to learn to agree with God's thoughts. I need to learn to THINK the way He wants me to think.

We get to choose what we think about. I hear this crap all the time: "I can't help what I think." Ummmm.... Soooooo you're a mindless drone that has thoughts implanted by an evil villain? Probably not.

BUT it's hard to think the way God wants me to think! I have to make a conscious choice on what I'm going to think about. Negative thought pops into my head? I need to think about something Godly.  A truth He's given me. Don't get me wrong. When I have a thought that I tend to obsess about or stress over it seems almost important that I sit and worry! Really, it totally seems to me that I NEED to sit and mull the ordeal over. But that's just not the truth. The truth is God has better for me. He wants me to TRUST Him with my baby. With everything! Honestly, He's obviously, got this situation more under control than I do, so I get to practice putting my thoughts back in order.

Try it with me. When a tough thought pops into your head think about something else. Literally, anything else. God wants us to be happy. He wants us to clean up our thinking, as my devo says. But He's not doing it for us! He gives us the tools and we make the choice.

So for the last leg of our adoption journey to Little Landmark I want to choose to have my thoughts be His thoughts.